school? who?

i cannot believe how lazy i am. i set my alarm for 6 a.m., like i always do, and it didn't go off. so i stayed home from school. the first bloody day back after exams, where we get our schedules and new textbooks... and i stay home. i knew i'd never be ready when i got up because i KNOW how long it takes me to get ready. sure, i could have gone in the afternoon, but no. i have no idea where all my modivation went. i swear to god i had it once, and i had it for a long time. now, suddenly, its been drained from me. i no longer feel the need to go to school every day and learn there. i feel i can learn more on my own. i have no idea. it's this strage phase... i've always been a goody-two-shoes, straight-a student, etc. etc. i swear it's because of IB. i just have this strong feeling it's because of IB that i no longer want school to be my number one priority. i'm sick of NOT wanting to go, and i'm sick of not putting any effort into it. i'm sick of it. and i'm completely ill-tempered right now. i want to kill them for killing me. i want to burn my school down.